Last night my head was pounding like a bass drum being played in a never ending cadence from a marching band on parade. All I could picture in my mind was the scene from “The Grinch who stole Christmas,” where he is complaining about “all the noise, noise, noise.” The drum mallets were taking their turn beating back and forth against my skull. I curled up in a dark room wanting it all to end, praying and wondering when this journey will be over?
I’m so tired of this migraine. It never stops, never gets better and never any relief. My faith has been pushed and stretched and yet I feel it is going backwards sometimes. I question and worry that it will be this way for the rest of my life. I have seen God move in my life and yet I feel i’m losing ground.
Why is there so much pain? Why is this pain not only physical but also spiritual? I wonder why my heart aches sometimes with knowing that God wants the best for me but how can this be the best?
My hope is that the heartache is growing His heart in me. That my heart will grow “3” sizes one day into HIS.
Ted Goodwin is a speaker and author of the book “Lessons from a Headache.” In June of 2009 Ted was diagnosed with a “chronic daily migraine” headache. Despite constant pain since the headache began, Ted has not allowed it to stop him from living life to the full. He lives a life that is active, rewarding and full of joy. He diligently trained for and completed his first marathon in September 2010, despite the migraine.