I’m really starting to question this whole headache situation. A few weeks ago I wrote “Take your shot!” It’s about the pain I go through when taking my allergy shots. Well, everything seems to be getting worse and not better. The spikes in the headache are more prevalent than ever.

I’m getting numerous spikes during the week and I have no energy or motivation to get through the day. It’s about all I can do get out of bed some mornings. This is so depressing. I was hoping by this point there would have been a change for the better not worse.

I called the Allergist today to find any answers of why things are worse. They suggested backing down the serum level. For me hating needles and knowing we are only 23 shots away from full dosage was not what I wanted to hear. I would rather push through and get to the high-test serum and kick this thing in the butt.

I’m also really questioning where God is right now. He is so silent and distant. Darkness has surrounded me and hope has faded to nothing. I keep searching but never finding. I know He is here but i’m not seeing, hearing or feeling His presence.

Will it be worth it only God knows.


Ted Goodwin is a speaker and author of the book “Lessons from a Headache.” In June of 2009 Ted was diagnosed with a “chronic daily migraine” headache. Despite constant pain since the headache began, Ted has not allowed it to stop him from living life to the full. He lives a life that is active, rewarding and full of joy. He diligently trained for and completed his first marathon in September 2010, despite the migraine.